Post by jude on Feb 7, 2013 17:45:13 GMT -8
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i'm living for the only thing i know i'm running and not quite sure where to go and i don't know what i'm diving into just hanging by a moment here with you there's nothing else to lose there's nothing else to find there's nothing in the world that can change my mind - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
he didn't know what he was doing anymore. he was depressed and he tried so hard to hide it from himself. from his father. from his friends. the guys that he called his friends. he hadn't spoke to them for a while. he wasn't in the mood to do so, until just recently. he wanted time by himself to just think. think things through and wonder what could possibly happen in the future. what he could do to better than he is now. he didn't know. he had no idea if he really wanted to change. he like himself being himself. there was no point in changing. the pressure was getting to him though. that article of him and the girls having a threesome, he took it hard. it was a breaking point. he didn't want to be known for that. he didn't like that kind of attention. that attention was awful. it shouldn't even exist, but there were people out there who were cruel and just enjoy that kind of amusement.
he was sucking on his thumb like a baby. a very old habit he had not done since he was little, but he needed to do something. he was sad and dried tears laid on his cheeks. the chat in the chat room brought him to tears. the old pictures, they were too much for him to bare. they brought back the memories he missed remembering so much about it. it brought back things he really did miss. it wasn't like him to hold anything back, but since moving in with his dad again. things just changed. he was different in the point he lost touch of his friends. he kept to himself more and spent little time outside of the house. he stayed in his room with his miniature pigs and just watched the tellie or surfed the net. he didn't want to show his face outside since that article was brought to the public's attention it was too much for him to handle and he couldn't get over it. and then he felt really hurt when jasper played the trick on him that tori was pregnant. he couldn't see himself as a father, not like jasper might have. he just couldn't see it and being with tori, well he didn't see her like that. she was a friend and nothing more. nothing else would happen between them.
jude kept hold of his thumb in his mouth waiting. waiting for jp and jasper to come over and comfort him. jp wouldn't be scared to come through the front door now, since the dogs were locked up in the backyard, probably destroying it knowing them. though they would never hurt jp, they were the nicest dogs jude had. they just put the fear in people by them just acting like they might mean guard dogs. jude held onto his pigs as they sat on his lap. all of them waiting for ice cream. nice cold, delicious ice cream. jude didn't know when he last had ice cream. he was already drooling for it.
TAG: JP (MIMI) JASPER (CANDY) NOTES: bros are gonna cry and be happy.
he was sucking on his thumb like a baby. a very old habit he had not done since he was little, but he needed to do something. he was sad and dried tears laid on his cheeks. the chat in the chat room brought him to tears. the old pictures, they were too much for him to bare. they brought back the memories he missed remembering so much about it. it brought back things he really did miss. it wasn't like him to hold anything back, but since moving in with his dad again. things just changed. he was different in the point he lost touch of his friends. he kept to himself more and spent little time outside of the house. he stayed in his room with his miniature pigs and just watched the tellie or surfed the net. he didn't want to show his face outside since that article was brought to the public's attention it was too much for him to handle and he couldn't get over it. and then he felt really hurt when jasper played the trick on him that tori was pregnant. he couldn't see himself as a father, not like jasper might have. he just couldn't see it and being with tori, well he didn't see her like that. she was a friend and nothing more. nothing else would happen between them.
jude kept hold of his thumb in his mouth waiting. waiting for jp and jasper to come over and comfort him. jp wouldn't be scared to come through the front door now, since the dogs were locked up in the backyard, probably destroying it knowing them. though they would never hurt jp, they were the nicest dogs jude had. they just put the fear in people by them just acting like they might mean guard dogs. jude held onto his pigs as they sat on his lap. all of them waiting for ice cream. nice cold, delicious ice cream. jude didn't know when he last had ice cream. he was already drooling for it.
TAG: JP (MIMI) JASPER (CANDY) NOTES: bros are gonna cry and be happy.
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